day 25/670

today was such an exhausting day for me and I took a nap the moment I reached home at 5.30pm. I set 4 alarms to wake me up before 8pm so I wouldn't miss your admin time (that's usually around 8.45).... But who knew I'd be so tired that I totally slept through those 4 alarms???

At 8.42pm you said you were free to call in 5 minutes, and thank God I woke up at exactly 8.46pm because my mum came in to wake me up. We talked as per usual, and I was telling you about how I was so tired that I slept through those 4 alarms that were supposed to wake me up. I continued to say that I still had to study for my Criminal Psych test regardless of how tired I was. Then you started telling me about how I should just sleep early today and study tomorrow instead since I was so tired... I tried to argue back and said that I HAD to study no matter what and this "argument" went on for quite awhile.

It wasn't a heated argument or anything, but more of just 2 stubborn people wanting to do 2 different things (sleep vs study) for 2 entirely valid reasons (sleep important vs study important)((LOL)) and we were both just trying to get each other to do what we thought was the better option ...also I can't believe we were "arguing" over something that isn't even remotely bad like u just wanted me to rest > study > meet while I wanted to study > rest > meet but ultimately all we wanted was just to see each other hahaha :"(

But anyway after a few minutes I just gave up trying to prove my point and went quiet as you continued telling me how "you should continue studying tomorrow instead because if you sleep late today and oversleep tomorrow you won't be able to study before meeting me and then you'll start panicking again". You could tell that something was up the moment I stopped speaking and immediately tried to apologize... But it was lights-out and you had to hang up (to get ready to sleep) so we did... but not before I told you how annoyed I was and how badly I wanted to hurl my phone at you haha.

You texted and apologized once more and our conversation went like this:
"sorry for being so sleepy and cutting you off today :( I hate it when our calls end on a sour note :("
"it's okay we can't dwell on it. please go sleep"
"sighhhh. I want you to sleep too :("
"me too HAHA. but if I sleep and mess up my study schedule now I won't be able to meet u with a peace of mind. and I'm not going to panic as much and I know you care but please don't worry too much"
"ahhhh. I'm sorry I should have understood :("
"it's okay I didn't say that just now"
"I think you were trying to but I wasn't letting you :/ I'm sorry :( I'll listen more next time I promise"
"Truth be told :/ The entire day I look forward to calling you and hearing your voice. Hearing the fact that 4 alarms couldn't wake you up for the call just sucked :/ and I know you're tired and you've been busy the last few days but it still sucks for me :( that's why I was so insistent just now :( I'm sorry it's very selfish :(( That's why when you went quiet I felt so bad. I was like I'm a diiiiiick."
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"we need to do this shit debate style"
"HAHA WHAT DEBATE STYLE"
"each side gets a chance to talk. like you go first, once you done I go as well hehe. no interruptions between."
"OH like midway through an argument we go like "OK STOP DEBATE you start first""
"YES let's do that from now on"
"let's hope there won't be a lot of opportunities to use that but ok HAHA at least we know what to do now"
"hahaha a relationship without arguments is not a healthy one because both peeps are only showing their good sides."


:-)

and I guess today's conversation made me realize how glad I was that you made the effort for the BOTH of us to clear things up... after the call all I did was be upset and start having doubts about our relationship because in the past I was so used to being ignored and then having all arguments be swept under the rug and never talked about again... So the fact that you made sure to address the problem today was really, really nice and I couldn't be more thankful :-)