Thursday, April 28, 2016

Bangkok '16 (Day 1) - After You @ Central World | Talad Rod Fai Night Market 2

Thursday, April 28, 2016
I FINALLY GOT TO GO TO BKK AFTER SO MANY YEARS OF WANTING TO GOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!! didn't take very many pictures for this blog but for the sake of memories :-***

7 April (Thursday) 
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6am flight to BKK!!!!! Slept over at Weiling's house the previous night and woke up at like 3am wtf haha

We stayed at the Bekerley hotel and headed to Platinum to have our lunch & shop, but everything was super expensive there pui >:(
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After You @ Central World 

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Finally?!?!?!?! 'twas a 25 minute wait but yum yum yum

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banana crumble which was good but ridiculously teeny =( what a shame

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Central World 2 fancy for mi so we went to Big C supermarket to shop for snacks

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Talad Rod Fai 2 
Wasn't as big as I had expected & really crowded + stuffy!!1!!1!! The items being sold there were quite nice though, I managed to get a few things for 100B

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Did not expect much from this chicken but OMG DAMN GOOD I love BKK fried chicken in all shapes and forms!!!!!!!!!!

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hahaha sry weiling but i had a good laugh over this photo HAHA

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Shared this salted grilled fish for only 200B for the 3 of us!!! supppppppppppper tender and good omg

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clearly very happy =D 

Friday, April 22, 2016

Friday, April 22, 2016
the past 3 days were extremely physically and emotionally draining and I found myself crumbling under pressure several times throughout the camp.

the last day was the happiest for the entire camp because hss finally won the "best spirited award", but it was the worst for me. an hour or two into the camp, my entire body just shut down and it was as if all the energy and enthusiasm got drained out of my soul. it was frustrating and terribly upsetting because I really wanted to give my all for the last day of my last FO camp. 

I wished I could have expressed my sincere gratitude to the freshmen and my fellow GLs on the last day and I regretted not taking better care of myself... but what's done is done. 

There are so many things I'd like to say and I need to consolidate my thoughts first, but thank you to all the people who have made my last FO camp a memorable one.  

Tuesday, April 19, 2016

365 days of Mav (and I): How we met

Tuesday, April 19, 2016
30 March (2 days before conference)
Prior to this, I (along with 3 other girls) were chosen to do a presentation at the Psychology Student Conference in April about a project we had done in Year 2.2. Our project supervisor was Wah Pheow, and he had wanted us to go back to school that evening to rehearse. WP had booked a room for us to practice in, but we had to share it with another group. That group was also supervised by WP and chosen to present at the conference... and (surprise, surprise) it was Mav's group HAHA. 

I had heard about Maverick before that day la because WP had mentioned him in a few gossip sessions before HAHA. It wasn't the best impression I could have had, but it did leave me thinking that Mav was pretty bad-ass. I also knew he was one of the top scorers for his batch (he's 1 year my senior) and I was already quite impressed. 

So when I first saw him that evening, I was like "eh so that's the Maverick I've heard about" and I thought he was quite cute???? We didn't talk that day and it was more of an EC thing, but I found myself hoping that I'd see him again HAHA. 

1 April (1 day before conference)
And I did the very next day!!!!!!!!! We had a dry run rehearsal for the conference that day and I only saw him towards the end. I was in a room talking to Hana, while Gabby (lecturer) and a few other seniors were inside as well. Mav then walked in and asked one of the female seniors (his friend): "are you leaving soon?" 

Upon hearing this, Gabby and the seniors all teased Mav and that female senior!!! Mav then said with a straight face: "ya ya I'm asking her out on a date". I later found out after we started dating that he was playing along la cause he was used to the teasing, but at that point I didn't know?? 

I remember Hana even said: "omg I ship!!".......................... and LOL not going to lie, I was quite disappointed :-(. But obviously I couldn't show it since I barely even knew Mav anyway. So I played along lor and responded: "YA THEY SO CUTE TOGETHER" (while my heart kind of cracked a bit lolol). Here is where I kind of just gave up because I thought Mav liked that female senior HAHAHAHA. 

2 April (day of the conference): 
The conference went on as planned and after everything ended, WP asked my group if we had wanted to join him and a few other seniors (incl. Mav) for a celebratory dinner. I was contemplating on whether I should go or not, but decided to go cause WHY NOT. Mav also asked if I was going for the dinner and that was our first conversation haha.

Somewhere here I found out that Mav wasn't romantically involved with anyone (or aforementioned female friend for that matter), so I was obvs quite happy LOL. 

Fast forward to the dinner at Bedok Reservoir: I saw an empty seat next to Mav AND QUICKLY SAT THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lololololol damn happy and we even (awkwardly) shared a menu together hahaha. We didn't talk thaaat much, but we did converse a bit here and there la. Mostly just me asking him to repeat what WP had said, because I couldn't hear properly LOL. 

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LOOK AT OUR FIRST PICTURE TOGETHER 

I thought that dinner would be the last time I could see Mav since he would graduate in May... BUT before we parted ways, Mav waved bye and said to ME: "see you at FO!" 
Sidenote 1: FO = Freshman Orientation Camp in late April which we were both helping out in 
Of course I was vvvvv happy because:
1) I could see Mav again
2) Did he just say "SEE YOU" to me?????????????????? 
Spoiler: After we started dating, Mav told me that he had said that on purpose to show that he was interested in seeing me again LOL 
Later that night, Mav added me on Facebook and followed me on Twitter.............. which made me even more happy cause SENPAI NOTICED ME

3 - 14 April (after the conference, before FO camp): 
We had to prepare for FO camp in our respective groups during these few days. We were in different groups, so we didn't talk at all. We would, however, acknowledge each other's presence when we saw each other in school (i.e. wave/smile) and this would make me very jittery and excited for the next few hours lolol. It was this period where I realized I was getting more into Maverick than I had anticipated.... probably because I now knew he was single (LOL).

I also remember complaining to Weiling because Mav was hardly active on Twitter and I had nothing to read/interact with. So one day when he FINALLY went on Twitter to retweet something, I quickly went to retweet it too just so my name would appear in his Twitter notifications to make him notice me wtf.
Spoiler 2: ...And he did! (again, I knew because I asked him if my sneaky little plan worked after we started dating) 

15 April (1st day of FO camp): 
Again, we were in different groups so we didn't get to interact much at all. I was an Orientation Group Leader and Mav was a Programmer, meaning he plans and executes games for the new freshmen while I basically lead and bring the freshmen around school. 

The only time I got to see him was when it was my group's turn to go to his game station, like such: 
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Look at how cute he is in his pink shirt giving game instructions to the freshies
My group is the one in red, at the top right corner haha #TeamManax  

16 April (2nd day of FO camp): 
Maverick TALKED TO ME on this day!!!!!!!!!!!!! My group was playing wet games in the field, while I sat in the shelter accompanying one of my freshies who couldn't play.

Suddenly, Mav came up to me and asked: "can I put my shoes here?" wtf I was so taken aback but had to keep calm and say ok............... After about 10 minutes, he came back to take his shoes and we! had! an! actual! conversation! Went something like this:

M: "Hey! So how's FO?" 
J: "Okay la, it's very tiring... but I'm looking forward to Final Clash later on!!!" 
Sidenote 2: Final Clash is the game Mav's group is in charge of and organized, LOLOLOLOLOL at my attempt to show him I'm paying attention to him 
M: "Oh you can play?" 
Sidenote 3: He thought I was sitting in the shelter because I was on my period (I wasn't) and couldn't play the wet games, which Final Clash was 
J: "Yea can! I'm just accompanying my freshie now"  
M: "Ah okay! See you later!" 

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
immediately:
- freaked out
- went on twitter to spam heart-eyed emojis (which I deleted cause I later remembered that he follows me.... lol cannot be too excited)
- spam texted weiling telling her about it
- freaked out somemore
- reenacted the entire conversation to my groupmate (shoutout to debbie) after they were done with wet games
- freaked out together

17 April (3rd & last day of FO camp): 
After the conference dinner till that day, I had a plan: Take a picture with Maverick after FO camp ended, because it'd be my last chance to do so before he graduates. To make sure I actually carried out the plan without backing out like a coward, I told some of my closer friends in my group lolololol. This is so that if I ever do start to back out, they can persuade me or be my wing(wo)man and help me HAHA. 

So eventually.............................. it was the end of the camp and as expected, I GOT SO SCARED!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was freaking out (in a bad way) because he was already walking away to his own debriefing somewhere else ;_; if I missed this chance, who knows when I'd see him again?????

Luckily I told my friends beforehand lolol because eventually one of them, Kristine, was like: "You want to take picture with him or not????? I help you ask him!!!" 

And she did!!! Mav and I always say that she's our matchmaker because she literally ran after Maverick (who she doesn't even know personally) to tell him that someone wanted a photo with him. 

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And it happened!!!!!!!!
I may or may not have stared at the photo multiple times during my debriefing........................................................ may or may NOT 

Felt very paiseh to make him walk all the way back to take pic with me, so I apologized and he was like: "Oh, no it's okay!" in his vvvvvv nice voice omg *crumbles to pieces*. I was also TREMBLING when I put my hand on his back because I was super happy & nervous!! After we took the picture, I thanked him and he walked away and I thought: "this is it lor, no more seeing Mav again"

But! then! he! turned! around!!!!!!!!!!

M: "Hey wait... Are you going for the Wah Pheow thing next week?". 
J: "Huh what Wah Pheow thing? He never say anything leh" 
M: "Haha you ask him la!" 
J: "Walao he bojio sia but ok ok" 
Spoilet 3: Mav later told me that he already knew I was definitely not going cause only graduated seniors (like him, not me) were going... but he still asked anyway AGAIN to hint that he wanted to see me LOL 
18 April (past midnight after FO Camp): 
After I took the photo, I reached home feeling a bit more brave and decided to proceed with part B of my plan: TALK TO MAVERICK

Getting advice from my homie, Daryl:
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Wise words from the Daryl

I kept trying to psycho myself to make the first move and finally became brave enough to open twitter to DM him 30 minutes later. But just as I was on Mav's twitter profile, about to click on the DM button 

...MAVERICK BEAT ME TO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my heart was pounding so so so so so so hard I couldn't believe my eyes when I saw @mavyapsy in my notifications WTF 
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No time to think just send whatever message I had planned to continue the conversation!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

So we continued talking for quite a fair bit :))) helped that we were from the same course so we talked about the one thing we knew we had in common: school LOL

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Hahaha mav think he very sneaky wtf

But I took the vvvvvvvvv obvious hint and immediately texted him so his plan worked la LOL

19 April (2 days after FO camp): 
Mav told me that he was working that day in Bugis+, getting people to do surveys. He also not so subtlely said that I "can come down and help" if I'm free LOL. 

I told him I had an event to go to on that day (which I did) so I most likely wouldn't be free to find him. Halfway through my event, I decided that I really wanted to go and see him. I even remember telling Weiling: "I'm going to be doing something possibly very stupid and ridiculous but wish me luck" HAHA. 

So I did... and took an impromptu 45min journey after my event in Hougang to Bugis, w/o telling Mav 
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quite embarrassing to look back cause I used so many "HAHAHAHAHA"s.............. LOL

It wasn't that awkward thankfully, because I was just doing the survey for him so we had something to "talk" about. He couldn't leave Bugis+ (cause work) so he walked me till the bridge to Bugis Junction which was nice :) 

Later on in the evening...
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He asked me out for a date!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! to which I readily and immediately agreed to HAHA to heck with playing hard to get!!!

20 April (Monday):  
Mav asked me out for dinner after my first day of school and that was our vvvv first date!!!

22 April (Wednesday): 
2 days later, we went on our second date (& watched Fast & Furious 7)

23 April (Thursday): 
And the third...

26 April (Sunday): 
And the fourth :) All within a week wtf we so happening

Somewhere in May: 
as a bonus for reaching the end of this post... here's 2 sneaky shots some of my friends took when they found out we were dating LOL
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I feel like this is where I should say "The End"... but it's really not the end yet la HAHAHA
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Happy anniversary bibs :-) 

Monday, April 11, 2016

day 268/670

Monday, April 11, 2016
"Sigh I wanted to call you but with all the confusion I never got the chance, sorry bibz :(" 
"It's okay please don't apologize or feel bad. We can call another time, but thanks for thinking about calling me. We haven't done that in a long while." 
"Can I call you for awhile now? Yes we haven't, but I haven't seen you in a weekend and I'm about to not contact you for 3 days. Plus Brunei is next week... and I want to hear your voice." 
Bangkok was lovely and I have no regrets of going, even though it took away a weekend of ours. Most around me know that I always block out my weekends just so I can spend it with Mav when he books out, but I really wanted to go to Bangkok on a weekend because there'd be more weekend markets + tickets were cheaper. To make things "worse", we found out before I left that Mav just so happens to have a 4-day weekend (meaning Thursday-Sunday book out).... which happened to be the 4 days I booked my BKK trip. 

I too want to be able to meet Mav right after I come back to Singapore, or have him pick me up from the airport like many couples I know. And while I wouldn't change a thing about our relationship (including Mav being in the army)... Some days like these just suck for the both of us. 

When Mav just enlisted, we used to call each other every weekday night but we had to stop after 2 months because our phone bills were bursting hahahaha. We do have Skype calls whenever I'm overseas, but it's been long since we've had an actual telephone call. The above conversation took place at 11.45pm, which is really late in the army (because they have early waking times) so we only talked for 2 minutes before hanging up. We didn't talk much and only had the time to say our (really long) goodnight's... but just hearing his voice really hit me. Mav's voice was softer than usual, and he sounded really tired. And really I think the hardest part of being an "army gf" is seeing your boyfriend being sad in the army, but not being able to do anything about it. 

The dreaded 3-weeks Brunei trip (with vvvvv minimal OR no contact at all) is upcoming and we're really, really, really not looking forward to it. 

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Bangkok Haul 2016

I just came back from Bangkok with my gurlzxc last night, and it was really one hella good time :-) There were a few regrets here and there... like w/ respect to how I could have reacted to certain things better, or how I should have bought more korean bbq crackers & honey butter chips (LOL) but on the whole, I really really GENUINELY enjoyed myself and already miss the company I was with :-( 

Literally almost everyone has been going to BKK these few weeks... and just this trip alone I've coincidentally bumped into like 3 groups of friends (from secondary school, work, poly) W/O prior plans to meet up wtf. 

It is also important to note that out of those 3 groups of friends, the one we bumped into and was in close proximity the most (like 8 times in 5 diff locations no joke) included........ kp, my ex bf of 2 years whom I've said not-so-nice things about on this blog before hahaHahahHAah. It was honestly a really weird experience lol because there was this odd sense of familiarity, and unfamiliarity at the same time. It's been so long and I don't think I'm AS bitter as I was before, but there was still this mindset that "I need to look attractive and show him I'm doing better w/o him"......but I guess I should just let go of this unhappiness once and for all. 
ANYWAY ON A HAPPIER NOTE, here is (most of) my haul from bangkok!!! 
We only had 3.5 days so we just went to the more tourist-y, famous shopping places. Ranked in order of my preferences!! 

1. Artbox (super good, chill vibes and friendly stall owners) 
2. Chatuchak 
3. Pratunam Morning Market 
4. Talad Rod Fai 2 
5. Siam Night Market 
6. Platinum Mall 
7. Union Mall 
8. Palladium Night Market 

Sidenote: wholesale price is given when you get 3 or more items from that stall and the owner charges you a slightly lower price 
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L&R: 110฿ / SGD4.20 (wholesale price)
Pratunam Morning Market 

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~ shining, shimmering, splendid ~
Kim originally got the black top while I got the grey/blue (??) one, but she didn't like the fit and so I kept the black for myself too HAHA

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L150฿ / SGD5.75 (wholesale price)
Pratunam Morning Market 
R: 110฿ / SGD4.20 (wholesale price)
Pratunam Morning Market 

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Had these in my Taobao cart for really long and just bought them when I saw them in the market irl hahahaha

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L100฿ / SGD3.85
Platinum Mall 
R: 150฿ / SGD5.75 (wholesale price)
Pratunam Morning Market 

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L: The cheapest and thing I saw and bought at Platinum Mall lolol.... everything there is RIDICULOUSLY expensive (like 350-600฿) wtf

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L: 150฿ / SGD5.75
Chatuchak Weekend Market 
R: 100฿ / SGD3.85
Talad Rod Fai 2 Night Market 

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Not the greatest fan of these shirts' cutting but I'll make do la LOL

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L: 120฿ / SGD4.60
Chatuchak Weekend Market 

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I love this top!!!!!!! It feels really expensive and well-made but is one of my cheapest buys on this trip leh!!! I don't have a lot of dressier tops like these so this was nice :-) It could have been cheaper if I bought 3 (100฿) instead but I didn't feel the need to buy so many just to save those few cents lololol

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L: 100฿ / SGD3.85
Palladium Night Market 
BKK has a lot of stores that sell these vintage/second-hand denim shorts for only 100฿ and while most are quite meh, I think you'd be able to find good fitting pairs if you dig hard enough!!!

R: 180฿ / SGD6.90
Chatuchak Weekend Market 

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Chatuchak Weekend Market 

Shirt says "Work Hard, Eat Harder" hahahaha
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I love the graphic tees from this particular shop!!! It's called 29 Decem and I found them at Chatuchak & Artbox (2 below as well). They're not that expensive either!!!

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L&R: 150฿ / SGD5.75
Artbox 

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These come in a cropped version as well and if I'm not wrong they're all OSFA, but it works gr8 for me because I can wear it oversized and be ~chills~.

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L&R: 100฿ / SGD3.85
Talad Rod Fai 2 Night Market 

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L: 200฿ / SGD7.70
Union Mall 
R: 200฿ / SGD7.70
Pratunam Morning Market 
I think this babydoll dress looks better irl than in pictures!!! The material is also reaaaallly soft but I hope it doesn't stretch out and lose its shape in the wash :-(

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L: Top - 150฿ / SGD5.75
Union Mall 
I think........ all the following outfits with this top are my favorites omg I wish I bought the top in grey too :-(((((

Shorts - 100฿ / SGD3.85
Siam Night Market 
I also really regret not buying these shorts in diff colours/patterns cause there were a lot!!!!!! but I wasn't sure of the cutting and didn't want to risk it :'(

R: 150฿ / SGD5.75
Chatuchak Weekend Market 
LOVE THESE PANTS!!! Even though they are way too long on me wtf sian. But these are the nicest prints I've seen thai pj pants in, and I thought they looked a bit Zara-esque and expensive lolol

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L&R: 200฿ / SGD7.70
Platinum Mall 

These are super well-made and so lovelyyyyyyyyyyyy!!! I almost didn't get them because it was my last day and my budget was running low (LOL) but I'm so so so so glad I did in the end :') My mum, Weiling & Kim all commented that I look like a thai school girl in this outfit though LOLOL

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L&R: 290฿ / SGD11.10
Union Mall 
MY MOST EXPENSIVE PURCHASE BUT I REALLY LIKED IT LEH!!! The quality is also really good and it's very structured, which is why I justified the price crei. After I bought this, I immediately texted Mav to set a date night so I have an occasion to wear this fancy skirt =) 
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