iPhone photos 1.36 - Llao Llao w/ Shaynnie | SchoOooOoOl days

16th January (Saturday) 

My fav girl who stayed over at our house for a week, and this is her showing me her homework oMg so cute


Met Shaynnie for a Llao Llao date AND I AM SO UPSET MY SERVING SIZE WAS SO PUNY >:---(
But I tried the white chocolate sauce and it was soooooooooooo good???? This is my 3rd time to Llao Llao and I am hooked omg this is BAD


Walking over to Bugis Street so Shaynnie can buy clothes for CNY while I scorn at the prices hahaha


Second time at Pie Face (?) and they did not disappoint again :''''''') I tried the mini lemon pie before and it was super yummy so I wanted to try the savoury pies!!! I got the chunky steak mini pie and even though it was $3.30 for a puny tart, it was soOooOoO good.


In Factorie's super chio dressing rooms!!!!!!

These heels from H&M were on sale for $20??? But I'm never going to have a chance to wear it so :-(


And also these booties!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

19th January (Monday) 

School started late so I had time to cook my egg white omelette :-)


And made lunch + dinner for school LOL


With my favourite filipino Paolo and sleeping beauty Hannah after lessons ended



......Had to stay back for a 2 hour consultation with WahPheow :-(
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As I write this I just found out I made a GRAAAAAAAAVE mistake for APRPB.... But sigh I'm just trying to comfort myself with the fact that THERE IS NOTHING GOD CANNOT FIX OK

(edit: this is yet another scheduled post that I wrote like a week ago but the problem is fixed yo ptl!!!!!!!) 

How much is enough

And right now 17/20 isn't enough

89/100 isn't satisfactory 

3.95 isn't the best because the highest I can go will (only) be 3.97 and I'm not even sure if I can even reach that point 

And I am scared for myself because how much will be "enough" for me 

How much before I can say "good job jerlyn" 

How much before I can be genuinely proud of myself and be happy with whatever I've gotten 

How much before I look at 89/100 and not think about the 90/100 I could have gotten 

How much more can I go before I really reach the maximum point and still not be satisfied enough 

Yeah jerlyn you have nothing to worry about 

How about no I have everything to worry about 

What if I was better off as that sec 3 Jerlyn who didn't get good marks or who barely passed her tests and had to even take a retest for a retest and who didn't have so high expectations of herself because she didn't know she could even achieve that much 

And the higher you go, the harder the fall 

But I don't want to fall so the only way I can go is up where the stakes get even higher yknow 
And when you fall from that height you make a much larger impact and everyone will find out 

How can people get an average of 93/100 for their whole 3 years in poly
How can people get 6 distinctions out of 6 subjects
How can people get a LKY award and cope with being a president of their CCA + still get a good gpa (and "why didn't you continue to stay in maincomm??????" haHahAaa because I can't cope) 

And please don't worry about me cause I'll be ok and I've had so much of these moods of fear about the future but I'll be ok 

Mid Sem 2.2 update

"Give me faith to trust what You say, 

That You're good and Your love is great 

I'm broken inside, I give You my life 

And I may be weak but Your Spirit's strong in me 

My flesh may fail, but my God, You never will" 

They really weren't kidding when they said Year 2 (and Sem 2.2 specifically) will be the worst and the most hectic period!!!!!!!!!! 

I have been doing so many scheduled posts and I feel like I haven't actually penned down my thoughts in quite awhile (which is probably untrue but). Yesterday's Abnormal Psych project presentation went well... I guess. There were a lot of things I've waited so long to say in front of the class but I chickened out la.

And I think I'm really very okay with speaking in front of crowds... But I was trembling throughout my oral presentation + I was right smack in front of the tutor... But thankfully the marks were based on the group's performance overall and not individual parts. Anyway we got back our marks right there and then. It was good la (i.e. A) but it wasn't good enough for me but I guess that's just cause I have too high expectations of myself??

And idk today's class was quite dramatic also and there was a lot of frustration and angst??? It felt good to have authority figures on our side but I felt really bad afterwards??? And I don't even know what to think or believe any more because they sound like lies but??? Just going to keep praying la like less of me and more of Him y'know and pray for His love to take over me :-( 

I was also just thinking about how in the beginning of the semester, when I found out that I was going to be supervised by this tutor for my "major" group project, I was soOoOoo scared?? Because as funny (read: lame) as he is, he really has this reputation of being super particular/meticulous when it comes to group projects?? So I was terrified la????????????????????  

But God's grace yo, he turned out to be much nicer than I had expected hahaha. I mean he's very particular about certain things and he has high expectations for us, but ultimately it's all for our own good (and grades) right?? He gives us a lot of things to do la, but he doesn't just leave us to do everything on our own. And today while we were consulting him about our data analysis (which is very tedious), he kept saying "Don't stress la why so serious" and he even said "Don't worry I'm not going to leave you in the lurch after telling you to do all those". And there are also all the other small things throughout the semester la, like putting :-)'s in his messages for our group and giving us chocolates every week hahaha. 

And like Hana told me just now, God is for me, not against me. He planted all these friends and even lecturers/tutors in my life who constantly look out for me. And for this, I'll be eternally grateful la ᕦ(◡‿◡ˇ)ᕤ So as much as school work is shitty and stresses me out, I'm still really, really, really glad that I'm here. 

P.S. I realize in all my webcam pics I'm always wearing the same few shirts!!!!!!!! I swear I have other shirts but I always rotate between like 3 shirts at home cause my mum washes them super fast hahaha 

iPhone photos 1.35 - Hide & Seek @ IKEA

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Super yumz cold Korean noodles for late dinner!!!!!!!!!


Super yumz Sweet Corn Pretz for snack!!!!!!!!!


Super yumz cold vegan honeycomb chocolate for another snack!!!!!!!!!
lol no just kidding this was horrible to eat and I'm just going to stick to non-vegan traditional chocolate from now on sorry


When I finally got around to writing down sermon notes for Vision Sunday (4th Jan)

16th January (Friday) 
Had an empire outing at IKEA to play Hide & Seek!!!!!!!

Glen, our empire leader yo ^^^

I hope nobody from Manax reads this but I used to have this little tiny crush on him when I was in Year 1 (because he was my orientation group leader) omg HAHAHAHAHAHA. When I found out I was posted under his empire this year I was like WAT


It was also a "collab" outing with another empire soOoOoOo as you can imagine, we created A LOT of noise


Also had a gift exchange for our Angel-Mortal game and this was my gift hehehe thx eu angel 

iPhone photos 1.34 - TPOH '14 | Gaming Addiction | Glacier Froyo

8 January (Thursday) 

TP Open House 2015!!!!!!!! And #ReasonsToLovePsych


Cause my hair quite nice leh hEHEHhe 

9 January (Friday) 

Group presentation day for Psychology of Addictive Behaviours!!!!!!!! This is Sam's group who presented on Cosmetic Surgery Addiction o_o #ReasonsToLovePsych

My group also presented on that day on Gaming Addiction and these were the posters we (technically, I) editted!!!!!

And good news is Ms Fionna said that it's very well done and she actually wants to use them in the school event/campaign thing she's doing!!!!!!!!!!
(yes I 辛辛苦苦 edited the pic of Kevin into my Sims' computer)(and yes the hotline number is real haha)


My mini Picasso who said she was drawing fireworks hehehe

10 January (Saturday) 

Glacier froyo with Weiling before church service!!!!!!!! And thank you for treating me and refusing to take my money even though you really didn't have to :"""""""----------(

Always a good time


And this made my day HAHAHAHAHA
Group members like this are the ones that make group projects well worth it (づ｡◕‿‿◕｡)づ