Mid Sem 2.2 update

"Give me faith to trust what You say, 

That You're good and Your love is great 

I'm broken inside, I give You my life 

And I may be weak but Your Spirit's strong in me 

My flesh may fail, but my God, You never will" 

They really weren't kidding when they said Year 2 (and Sem 2.2 specifically) will be the worst and the most hectic period!!!!!!!!!! 

I have been doing so many scheduled posts and I feel like I haven't actually penned down my thoughts in quite awhile (which is probably untrue but). Yesterday's Abnormal Psych project presentation went well... I guess. There were a lot of things I've waited so long to say in front of the class but I chickened out la.

And I think I'm really very okay with speaking in front of crowds... But I was trembling throughout my oral presentation + I was right smack in front of the tutor... But thankfully the marks were based on the group's performance overall and not individual parts. Anyway we got back our marks right there and then. It was good la (i.e. A) but it wasn't good enough for me but I guess that's just cause I have too high expectations of myself??

And idk today's class was quite dramatic also and there was a lot of frustration and angst??? It felt good to have authority figures on our side but I felt really bad afterwards??? And I don't even know what to think or believe any more because they sound like lies but??? Just going to keep praying la like less of me and more of Him y'know and pray for His love to take over me :-( 

I was also just thinking about how in the beginning of the semester, when I found out that I was going to be supervised by this tutor for my "major" group project, I was soOoOoo scared?? Because as funny (read: lame) as he is, he really has this reputation of being super particular/meticulous when it comes to group projects?? So I was terrified la????????????????????  

But God's grace yo, he turned out to be much nicer than I had expected hahaha. I mean he's very particular about certain things and he has high expectations for us, but ultimately it's all for our own good (and grades) right?? He gives us a lot of things to do la, but he doesn't just leave us to do everything on our own. And today while we were consulting him about our data analysis (which is very tedious), he kept saying "Don't stress la why so serious" and he even said "Don't worry I'm not going to leave you in the lurch after telling you to do all those". And there are also all the other small things throughout the semester la, like putting :-)'s in his messages for our group and giving us chocolates every week hahaha. 

And like Hana told me just now, God is for me, not against me. He planted all these friends and even lecturers/tutors in my life who constantly look out for me. And for this, I'll be eternally grateful la ᕦ(◡‿◡ˇ)ᕤ So as much as school work is shitty and stresses me out, I'm still really, really, really glad that I'm here. 

P.S. I realize in all my webcam pics I'm always wearing the same few shirts!!!!!!!! I swear I have other shirts but I always rotate between like 3 shirts at home cause my mum washes them super fast hahaha