Lift up your eyes

The King above all kings 

The greatest One of all 

Lift up our eyes, see the King has come 

Light of the world reaching out for us 

Seated on high, the undefeated One 

Mountains bow down as we life Him up 

There is no other name 

There is no other name 

Jesus Christ our God

I put so much pressure on myself that I don't even dare to ask my group members to help out with the group project and I just got so overwhelmed with all the additional things I had to do??? I was already rushing out my group project draft due tomorrow, and suddenly I had to settle a whole bunch of things for another group project??? So I just said a quick prayer in the midst of crying and feeling like shit and I said, "God just please let me find peace in you". This song was playing in the background but I didn't really pay attention to it because I was so focused on just typing out my project draft.. And then suddenly this verse came up and I immediately stopped what I was doing to listen. 

And then I realized like I didn't have to worry about asking God to come to me, because all I had to do was just to lift up my eyes and see that He has always been with me. It's not a matter of whether He will come to me, but whether I will go to him first. 

He will always, always be there and I don't even have to ask. All I have to do is remind myself to look up and remember that I can always just seek comfort in Him. And in the midst of everything, knowing that I always have someone to lean on is really, really nice. 

Thank You. 

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I tell myself that I can do better 

Someday I'm gonna get it all together 

Who am I fooling? 

I am weak and prone to be 

The me that I will always be 

So what's left to do but surrender? 

This is where I end 

And this is where You start 

And everything I needed 

Is everything You are 

I need to stop thinking that I can do this myself. That I don't need God, or I don't need my group members to help me..... Because as much as I'd like to think that I'm (more than) enough, or as much as my friends say things like "You have 5 of them but we have 1 Jerlyn", I'm precisely just that. I'm 1 of me, and I cannot do this myself.