uni week 11

The past 3 months of uni have been relatively smooth-sailing and manageable (despite the daily constant studying) but the past 2 weeks have basically been shit.

Hall life was quite happening too: last week, I had something hall-related every night I was there — mostly suppers with my hall friends, and hall inter-block games on one of the nights. One of the suppers that week was COOKED BY ME (and my other block reps) BTW. It was quite nerve-wrecking la but we managed to pull through and cook for 100 pax: a huge feat considering the fact that the 4 of us aren't the best cooks out there hahaha (I even burnt my hand while scooping noodles out wtf). Even though all that took up precious time that could have been spent studying (haha), I honestly did enjoy myself immensely and realized just how bad I wanted to remain in hall next year.

This week, there were also interviews for next year's FOC recruitment and hall production auditions. I went for both.

I got through the auditions (wowowow) but not the GL interview... which was a huge disappointment la. I went for the auditions because some seniors convinced me that I should really try it out, but being a GL was the one and only thing I had set out for when I came to hall. All the other things I got in (e.g. block rep) wasn't part of the plan (still vvv thankful nonetheless) so when I didn't get in, I was really quite upset la. Friends I talked to about wanting to be a GL all said things like "u confirm can one" and I really thought I could la lolololol

Anyway I'm just really scared that I won't get into hall again next year. Don't get me wrong, I really like my friends in my course but the people I spend most time with is undeniably the people in my hall, with all the hall events and the ease of meeting for suppers and bumping into each other when you're walking to the pantry etc. Hall and hall friends just really keep me sane and happy yknow!!!!!! if I don't get into hall next year, such a huge part of my uni life (and my support system ;_;) is gone :( The other week all the stress just got to me and I broke down and I didn't want to stay alone in my room and texted Isaac to ask if he could meet me downstairs for awhile and he did.. and it was just really comforting to not cry alone (LOL)  la. Or when I'm sick of studying astronomy and meet Cheryl and Smee and YuanXin and Ryan for impromptu supper at the lounge downstairs and it takes my mind off my endless to-do lists u____u

plus all the stress about hall and uni (but mostly hall) made me a big self-deprecating blob of sadness and long story short mav and I didn't have the best of days either. it was like 2-3 days of (non-aggressive don't worry) confrontations and all but we talked it out and it's over and settled so :)

I was talking to Smee about the whole GL thing and she reminded me that it was part of God's plan yknow and that was a really timely reminder?? Trust that He knows better and even if I end up in another department other than GL in next year's FOC (providing I can even get into another one first), it's ok!!!!! :))



hahaha wanted to just post a rly short update on my sucky 2 weeks of uni just so I can ~remember~ all the good and the bad but it didn't turn out very short la HAHA ok bye!!!!! last slide to finish up before I can sleep and meet Mav **FOR SUSHI** tomorrow :)

also to end positively: today I finally saw the doctor for the (3-weeks old) rashes on my legs (photos another time lolol) and I went out with my momma AND WE BOUGHT LOTSA GOOD FOOD!!!!!! Like Llao Llao and pine garden cakes and nine fresh and Inari sushi yum yum + my mum sponsored some taobao stuff for me HAHA + I had a productive night of studying because the 3 chapters I did today were short and understandable!!!!! what a stark contrast from 1 chapter of astronomy that takes me 3-4 nights to finish lolol BUT OK BYE