Walking in expecting you'd be late
But you got here early and you stand and wave
I walk to you
You pull my chair out and help me in
And you don't know how nice that is
But I do
And we walked down the block, to my car
And I almost brought him up
But you start to talk about the movies
That your family watches every single Christmas
And I want to talk about that
And for the first time
What's past is past
And you throw your head back laughing
Like a little kid
I think it's strange that you think I'm funny cause
He never did
I've been spending the last 8 months
Thinking all love ever does
Is break and burn and end
But on a Wednesday in a cafe
I watched it begin again
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Quite scary to think about how close I was to not signing up for this year's Freshman Orientation or how close I was to not going for that dinner after the Psychology Conference, because if I hadn't went for the dinner and taken that seat next to you or (had my friend) ask you for a picture with me on the last day of Freshman Orientation... I wouldn't have experienced all these and I'm just vvvvv thankful that everything somehow fell right into place. Because how often does shit like this happen????? Also I've been trying to be a (pessimistic) "realist" and tell myself that I shouldn't get too attached because it'll all end in a few months anyway and then I'd look very stupid for being so into this lol but is that really the right mindset to have? Is that being fair to something that could possibly have a lot more "potential" than I tell myself to think??
Babe I literally had ZERO hopes with pout when we first started out bc he was going into the army and I was going into university so soon. But look where things all ended up? I used to be so scared of getting my heart broken when we eventually "drift apart" because I put so much of myself in him but we haven't talked about being official, but then I realised being worried is really WASTE MY LIFE LAH because I get so little time with him!!!! I didn't wanna be caught up with the "what ifs" and "hows". Really it's coz I like him so much I'd be satisfied with ANYTHING I can get from him, I'd be satisfied with ANYTHING he can give me, ANY time I can spend with him.
ReplyDeleteIt's obvs you like him a lot and both of you are young what you need to focus on is really enjoying the time yall have together especially since the future is so uncertain, right right????? Trust me once you stop worrying/carrying the idea of an "imminent end" to this relationship(TOUCHWOOD), you'd realise how AWESOME it is to fall in love when you're young. Don't spend precious time worrying about "Omg he's not going to make this official anytime soon, what if we just lose interest and commitment?", just enjoy being with him. Not all relationships need labels, learn to enjoy his words, enjoy laughing with him and enjoy his touch while you're with him. And be patient, because if it's meant to be IT WILL HAPPEN. Don't worry ya hehehehe I know it's hard lah to NOT feel insecure US GIRLS ARE ALWAYS LIKE THAT DE HAIYO but really, live in the now. It's so much more enjoyable if you live in the moment with him without worries. *HUG HUG* YOU CAN DO IT
PS: He's a catch
PPS: Sounding like a real mother hen lecturing her daughter lolz but HEY I AIN'T NO EXPERT AT THIS pls don't bank the whole of your relationship on this comment hor pls hahahahhhahahahahahahahha this is just my little tiny opinion hehe much loveeeeeeees