even in the dust, we shine

21 May (update): 

:"-) 

20 May: 

Don't know if it's a good idea to "announce" this here but last Tuesday, I received news that my TP scholarship would be terminated (because I didn't attend enough events to hit the renewal requirements). I already kind of expected it like a month prior but when I saw it in "concrete form" (i.e. the email) it just made it more real??? It was during Criminal Psych tutorial when I found out so I basically had another breakdown (literally) in front of the entire class, but thankfully Ms Shahiraa ended lessons early. After everything, she asked me if something happened so I just told her, not expecting anything. But then she offered to help me email the person-in-charge for an appeal, which she eventually did together with another HSS staff, Ms Elizabeth.

:-) 

Today otw to school, I received a call from her and she told me the appeal was unsuccessful, but that there were other bursaries/scholarships I could still apply for. Not only that, she even said she'd help me check which ones I could apply for wtf :""( She ended the call with "sorry about the scholarship" and I was just so :""""""( I didn't even feel upset over the fact that it wasn't successful because I was so overwhelmed with ???????? that my tutors would go all the way just to help me, when they could have just said like "yeah you can email the in-charge yourself" and left it at that. 

I've heard other students complain about their tutors/lecturers so I just feel incredibly blessed to be surrounded by all these tutors who really care about their students overall well-being and not just grades???? Ms Shahiraa also got one of my friends to buy hot milk tea for me to comfort me (and that wasn't the first time she did it) and a whole other things also la. And it's not just her, but my other tutors also care so so so so much about me and the other students and I'm just vvvvvv glad I came to this course yknow.

From meeting me for consultations 10 minutes after I whatsapp them at like 7pm panicking about my literature review 

To giving me printouts about how to relax because they know how stressed I get 

To checking up on me every week or so
To even small things like teaching me how to take the shuttle bus from Sengkang because they know it'll be more convenient than taking it from Hougang (like I usually do)

:""") just vvvvvvvvvv lucky and I couldn't have asked for more