even in the dust, we shine

I wish that I didn't fall apart because of the 21/30 I got for the group project 

I wish I could have relaxed when she passed me my individual assignment and said "don't you want to get back your A" 

I wish I believed her when she said "you're doing good" "all is well" "great job" 

I wish I didn't have to keep thinking about that 4.0 GPA I might never get because of that 0.2 marks I was missing from an 80 

I wish my entire self worth didn't depend on the number of A's I got 

And I wish I didn't have to be told to breathe in for 20 minutes 

But we really can't always get what we want right? We always assume changing cognitions or maladaptive thoughts was easy until you have to try to change it yourself.. And as tired as your friends are of telling you to "relax" or "chill", you know you yourself are tired too.