I can see the love in Your eyes

Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me

Oh I can see it know
Oh I can see the love in Your eyes

I guess I can say that yesterday's Arrow service really spoke to me. I was really contemplating on whether I should go for service for a week, because of all the assignments I have to finish and because I'm just always so tired from school. But there was a part of me that felt compelled to go, like I could feel that the service on Saturday will really be meant for me... So I did. Anyway, God will never short change me, so what's taking a few hours off on a Saturday to attend service instead of doing my work?? 

The night before service at like 1.30am, Sam suddenly texted me out of the blue and asked, 

"If you could see God face to face and can ask one question, what would you ask?" 

I couldn't think of a "smart" question to answer Sam, but the first question that came to my mind was "Why does God treat me so nice?" I mean it's not a super intellectual question by any means but it was the only question I really wanted to ask? I mean theoretically I know the answer (because He loves me) but it's still something that puzzles me. I guess it's because nobody on Earth is as good as our God is and nobody treats us as nice as He does, and even if someone human did, it would be with a motive right??? But God's love for us is unconditional and I just feel so undeserving of His love, especially because I'm not the "best" Christian ever. 

And the next day at service, we sang "Broken Vessels (Amazing Grace)" by Hillsong for the first time. It was the first time we (or for that matter, I) had seen the lyrics, and there was this one part that really HIT me. 

"Amazing grace 

How sweet the sound 

That saved a wretch like me 

I once was lost 

But now I am found 

Was blind but now I see 

Oh I can see it now 

Oh I can see the love in Your eyes 

Laying yourself down

Raising up the broken to life" 

I just thought it was so amazing that just a few hours before I learnt this song, Sam and I were just discussing about how I would ask God why He loves me so much if I ever saw Him face to face... And the lyrics in the song were like "I can see the love in Your eyes" so it was super appropriate??? 

And Pastor Lian was preaching afterwards and I remembered there was this one line that she said, 

"We cannot understand the undeserving love from God, 

but we can experience it" 

And upon that realization, I was just like wowowowowow. I mean, I will never understand how and why God can love us this much, even when we are REALLY just undeserving la. Butttttt I will experience just how truly amazing His love is :-) 

"But down the road, the population of Israel is going to explode last counting, like sand on the ocean beaches. 

In the very place where they were once named Nobody, they will be named God's somebody" 

Hosea 1:10 

My God is a God who will come to me 

My God will do the impossible 

My God will make me reign in life 

I will be spiritual and strong 

Yesterday was also the first time I spoke in tongues!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

I've always heard people speak in tongues and I was just always so amazed by what God can do in us... But I always just felt left out because I never knew how to and I never could do it??? But my cell group leader and other members prayed for me after service and it happened :-))))))

At first, I could feel my whole face twitching but I just assumed that it was because I was crying la (lolol). It wasn't till my CG leader said "You're doing it!" before I realize that words were coming out of my mouth. I can't describe the feeling but it was just so so so so so amazing and it was just a really (as cheesy as it sounds) beautiful moment la.

Reallyyyyyyyyyyyy glad I went for service yesterday  (◡‿◡✿)
I can't wait to see where this journey with God will take me :-)