My mind is in a mess and my thoughts are all over my head. And I remember when a friend told me that I needed to have more confidence in myself and it struck me hard because I know that I should and stop beating myself up for every small mistake I make. If nobody's perfect and I shouldn't aim to be perfect??
On Monday night I remember panicking and spamming Daryl's whatsapp at like 2am in the morning because I was suddenly really scared of my future and worried that I won't be able to maintain my GPA and get into a local uni... And then the next day (sneaky) Weiling came to surprise me after my lessons with a surprise package and a letter which said "Also, stop worrying about the future! Let the future worry about itself, leave it to God! Take life one step at a time and don't stress out over things you can't control!" Really, really made my day la and I'm so upset I didn't get a chance to stay longer and talk to her (and Ivan), because I was trying to beat the crowds (peak hour lor meh)(next time Weiling!!!)
Idk how He does it, but God really works in amazing ways. Just as I was worried about my future, God sent one of my fav people in the world over to remind me that I should leave everything in His hands, because God already has a plan for me and my future. The day before God also answered my prayers (like He always does) and helped me catch my bus and get a seat when I was running late for school (after not being able to get on 8 buses) AND also when I had a terrible stomach cramp later on in the evening and just really wanted to get home asap.
Right now I really need to start on my report on Polytechnic students' education/career goals and aspirations... As well as find journal articles for my research paper on Counseling Psychology. It's not even the end of the second week of Year 2 and I'm already needing to do so much and these 2 assignments are due around the same time in mid May (w t f) and make up like 20% of my grade for that subject (w t f). Have to do this properly ugh I really don't know how I'm supposed to do this for another 10 years or however long it takes to be a trained and certified psychotheraist but I'm going to stop worrying for the future and maybe I'm meant to be a housewife because I'll marry a rich man who can help me support my own parents HAHAHA ok bye
And going back to the topic of confidence, I was also thinking about how I really needed to start being more confident in myself overall (and like not just for grades but for like looks and body too??) what better way than to get confidence than by overcoming my "selfie" problem
Also got to try VeganBurg today with my 2 fav poly girls and sat there for like 2 hours just eating, talking and taking pictures and it was a really good time :) POST ANOTHER DAY I REALLY NEED TO GET CRACKING AND START ON MY WORK and it's 1st May midnight woohoo happy birthday my annoying brother Jeric muah
This was such a random jumble of words and thoughts and I didn't even really make much of a conscious effort to shorten my sentence so if you read everything (or even if you didn't) just want to say thanks for reading my blog I reallllllllllllyyyy appreciate it and BYE hopefully this post isn't that embarrassing and that I don't delete this tomorrow morning HAHA
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