A few more sketches I did!!!!! Was very tempted to point out all the flaws in these but that wouldn't be very nice right haha
A few posts back when I posted my sketches I was like "drawing people isn't something I can do really well lol so all my people drawings ... are faceless" and 5 days later there I was DRAWING A PROPER FACE THAT ACTUALLY LOOKS HUMAN!!!!!!!!!!!!
Was thinking of what to decorate on Filzah's card for her birthday chalet and I saw my sketchbook in front of me. So I decided to just try my luck la, and went to her Twitter profile like a creep lolol and drew with her profile picture as reference. I don't draw people because I can't even get face shapes correctly, so when I did it correctly I was like "Eh actually it's quite good!!".
Got motivated and started with the nose, then the mouth..... And by then I was already SUPER pleased with myself!!!!!!!!!! The most crucial part was the eyes/eyebrows and after a few tries, I was sooo satisfied with the final results!!!!!!!!!!! Couldn't believe I actually managed to draw a face!!!!!!!!! And ok to be fair if I were to draw the second eye it would be harder to make sure it's proportionate to the first eye etc etc, so I just used the hair to cover more than it actually did hahahahaha. But not bad for my first try right!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Few more photos I actually referenced from Tumblr photos I saw on my dashboard (which I've been using more of now hehe)
Stepping out of my comfort zones whoa whoa what drawing faces and hands but I'm very pleased!!!!!!!!
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4 April
CSC organized a visit to the Institute of Mental Health (IMH) and it was quite okay, nothing like I had expected honestly. Had to play games with some of the patients there, and the table I was at got the last choice of games :( So the games we (two other CSC subcomms and I) played were quite boring (Blackjack, Jenga, puzzles) and our 3 patients didn't seem very entertained....... And later on the 3 of them went back to their rooms before all the other patients.... I felt so sad and rejected ಥ_ಥ
There was also language barrier between the patient and I. I cannot converse in Chinese for the life of me so 99% of the time I was just relying on the subcomm to speak to them...... FELT SO USELESS AND STUPID like wtf I'm a main committee member, I'm supposed to be the one setting a good example????
And idk I just felt so awkward..Like if I left the table I was handed over by my vice pres to go to another table to help (like make better use of my time), I felt like I would be disappointing my vice president cause she trusted me with that table??? I really wanted to go over to other tables cause there were other patients who spoke English... But all the tables were already full and taken well care of by other subcomms/maincomm members.
Later on lateeeeeeeeeeeee at night after meeting and dinner, I went to find Marilyn and we took a cab to meet our other classmates for Filzah's party. Marilyn so sweet hehehehehe she was scared I'd be hungry before we went for the party, so she surprised me with sushi (╥﹏╥)
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If my CCA president reads my blog she'd probably hate me sigh and she's so nice to me and everyone sigh why am I disappointing her. But anyway I decided to step down from CSC's main committee next academic year :/
At first I joined CSC (Community Service Club) because 1) I genuinely do enjoy doing community service work 2) I thought it would be less time consuming then if I were to join a performing arts which was my first choice. One of my scholarship criterias was to actively involved in CCA so I didn't want something too time consuming.
I'm actually really, really lucky that I got a chance to be in the main committee. To be interviewed and shortlisted to get into the main comm, we actually had to submit some form online but I missed the chance la. Didn't think too much of it, until one day I was helping out at a CSC event with Zachary Ng.
THROWBACK TO MY FIRST CSC EVENT 46 WEEKS AGO LOL
Ruiqi took this photo so she could laugh at me ಠ_ಠ
When I got home after the event, the (then) president of CSC actually SMSed me to ask if I wanted to join the main committe. After having a talk with the (then) president and the teacher in charge, I was officially a part of the CSC maincomm just like that!!!!!!! After a few weeks of being in the main committee, I found out that one of the maincomm members saw me at the event and thought I had the potential (LOL) to be in the main committee, so she told the (then) president to ask me to join hehe ◕‿◕
Getting the ~official~ CSC shirt made me really really happy!!!
Leadership training camp with the rest of the main committee members
It took me awhile to get to know the other maincomm members, and a few even said that they thought I was super quiet at first HAHA. Even though all of them were really nice, I can't lie and say that I ever really felt like I "fitted in". Everyone sat in the same few clusters/cliques at meetings and I'm usually the one who just sits wherever there's space. But I guess after awhile it got better though. I had 2 friends who I was closest to in CSC and sometimes I'd sit next to them during meetings.
We all had roles, and I was the assistant subcomm head. My jobscope was mainly just to send out emails to all the ~1100 subcomm members (ya we have a lot of members) and (try to) answer any queries that subcomm email us with.
Even though my jobscope was super easy compared to the rest, it was the whole events part that was stressful. Every maincomm members had to organize 2 events (lias with external vendors, book tables/function rooms etc etc), and thankfully I had a lot of help with the events I was tasked to organized. I still had to do a fair bit la, especially for the International Volunteer Day roadshow hahaha. There was also a lot of admin stuff that came along with my subcomm head role and the organizing of events AND I SUCK AT ADMIN MATTERS. I knew nuts about how to do the work assigned to me wtf lol I probably annoyed my president and senior so much with my never ending list of questions.
Anyway besides organizing, we also had to help out with all the events that all the other maincomm members organized. There was a period of time where we had CSC events (that lasted a few fays each) every week for 5 weeks straight... Our timetables are actually all collated by one of the maincomm members la, so no escaping from duties also because they know when is our breaks/lessons HAHA. For that period of time, almost all of my breaks were taken up to help out for CCA events and even if I had no CCA, I had group project meetings. It was one of the most stressful month I ever had in Year 1, and I was soooooooo tired and so frustrated. To add on, we also had meetings every few weeks or so on a school day at 7pm which would sometimes end at like 9pm and it could get really, really tiring. I was always the first one (if not the first few) to leave meetings also cause I really just want to get home...
As much as I love being a maincommittee member and feeling like I'm a part of something big (helping out at events, sending emails to 1100 people and having your email in their inboxes etc), I really didn't enjoy all the workload we had. I knew right from the start that being in the maincommittee would be REALLY hard, but that didn't stop me from joining anyway so I have no one else to blame but myself.
However, it came to the point where I really didn't enjoy CCA at all (even though the people were really nice) and was constantly complaining here and there. Like I said, I genuinely do enjoy doing community service work because it's really fulfiling la. But I didn't want being all busy/stressed about the work I had to do in the main committee to affect my passion/willingness to do community service work?
I knew that whatever events we organized really helped to give back to society, but I didn't like that I had to sometimes "force" myself to (go for my duties to) do community work. I really don't want to hate doing community work. I know it's so ironic, like being in the CSC maincomm should make you love doing community work more, not the other way round. I know I'm being REALLY selfish, but I feel like if I didn't want to commit another year to being in the maincommittee, I might as well give my spot up for someone who deserves it more than I do, and someone who would do a much better job than I did.
Okay that is my long rant of why I didn't want to continue to be in the maincommittee. Long story short, I just didn't feel "right" for the job hahaha. Really grateful to the people that I had "consulted" with about whether or not I should quit CSC maincomm HAHA okay bye making pizza dough with Marilyn tomorrow!!!!!!!
But this is a sechuled post as usual so I would have probably made and eaten the pizza dough before you read this post HAHA OK BYE
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| Passenger's Let Her Go |
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| One of my DSLR photos when I was studying for Cognitive Psy |
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| Probably the drawing I'm most proud of so far (◠‿◠✿) |
Was thinking of what to decorate on Filzah's card for her birthday chalet and I saw my sketchbook in front of me. So I decided to just try my luck la, and went to her Twitter profile like a creep lolol and drew with her profile picture as reference. I don't draw people because I can't even get face shapes correctly, so when I did it correctly I was like "Eh actually it's quite good!!".
Got motivated and started with the nose, then the mouth..... And by then I was already SUPER pleased with myself!!!!!!!!!! The most crucial part was the eyes/eyebrows and after a few tries, I was sooo satisfied with the final results!!!!!!!!!!! Couldn't believe I actually managed to draw a face!!!!!!!!! And ok to be fair if I were to draw the second eye it would be harder to make sure it's proportionate to the first eye etc etc, so I just used the hair to cover more than it actually did hahahahaha. But not bad for my first try right!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Few more photos I actually referenced from Tumblr photos I saw on my dashboard (which I've been using more of now hehe)
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| Pencil sketch > Details with pen > Erasing pencil marks |
Stepping out of my comfort zones whoa whoa what drawing faces and hands but I'm very pleased!!!!!!!!
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4 April
CSC organized a visit to the Institute of Mental Health (IMH) and it was quite okay, nothing like I had expected honestly. Had to play games with some of the patients there, and the table I was at got the last choice of games :( So the games we (two other CSC subcomms and I) played were quite boring (Blackjack, Jenga, puzzles) and our 3 patients didn't seem very entertained....... And later on the 3 of them went back to their rooms before all the other patients.... I felt so sad and rejected ಥ_ಥ
There was also language barrier between the patient and I. I cannot converse in Chinese for the life of me so 99% of the time I was just relying on the subcomm to speak to them...... FELT SO USELESS AND STUPID like wtf I'm a main committee member, I'm supposed to be the one setting a good example????
And idk I just felt so awkward..Like if I left the table I was handed over by my vice pres to go to another table to help (like make better use of my time), I felt like I would be disappointing my vice president cause she trusted me with that table??? I really wanted to go over to other tables cause there were other patients who spoke English... But all the tables were already full and taken well care of by other subcomms/maincomm members.
Later on lateeeeeeeeeeeee at night after meeting and dinner, I went to find Marilyn and we took a cab to meet our other classmates for Filzah's party. Marilyn so sweet hehehehehe she was scared I'd be hungry before we went for the party, so she surprised me with sushi (╥﹏╥)
.
.
.
.
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If my CCA president reads my blog she'd probably hate me sigh and she's so nice to me and everyone sigh why am I disappointing her. But anyway I decided to step down from CSC's main committee next academic year :/
At first I joined CSC (Community Service Club) because 1) I genuinely do enjoy doing community service work 2) I thought it would be less time consuming then if I were to join a performing arts which was my first choice. One of my scholarship criterias was to actively involved in CCA so I didn't want something too time consuming.
I'm actually really, really lucky that I got a chance to be in the main committee. To be interviewed and shortlisted to get into the main comm, we actually had to submit some form online but I missed the chance la. Didn't think too much of it, until one day I was helping out at a CSC event with Zachary Ng.
THROWBACK TO MY FIRST CSC EVENT 46 WEEKS AGO LOL
Ruiqi took this photo so she could laugh at me ಠ_ಠ
When I got home after the event, the (then) president of CSC actually SMSed me to ask if I wanted to join the main committe. After having a talk with the (then) president and the teacher in charge, I was officially a part of the CSC maincomm just like that!!!!!!! After a few weeks of being in the main committee, I found out that one of the maincomm members saw me at the event and thought I had the potential (LOL) to be in the main committee, so she told the (then) president to ask me to join hehe ◕‿◕
Getting the ~official~ CSC shirt made me really really happy!!!
Leadership training camp with the rest of the main committee members
It took me awhile to get to know the other maincomm members, and a few even said that they thought I was super quiet at first HAHA. Even though all of them were really nice, I can't lie and say that I ever really felt like I "fitted in". Everyone sat in the same few clusters/cliques at meetings and I'm usually the one who just sits wherever there's space. But I guess after awhile it got better though. I had 2 friends who I was closest to in CSC and sometimes I'd sit next to them during meetings.
We all had roles, and I was the assistant subcomm head. My jobscope was mainly just to send out emails to all the ~1100 subcomm members (ya we have a lot of members) and (try to) answer any queries that subcomm email us with.
Even though my jobscope was super easy compared to the rest, it was the whole events part that was stressful. Every maincomm members had to organize 2 events (lias with external vendors, book tables/function rooms etc etc), and thankfully I had a lot of help with the events I was tasked to organized. I still had to do a fair bit la, especially for the International Volunteer Day roadshow hahaha. There was also a lot of admin stuff that came along with my subcomm head role and the organizing of events AND I SUCK AT ADMIN MATTERS. I knew nuts about how to do the work assigned to me wtf lol I probably annoyed my president and senior so much with my never ending list of questions.
Anyway besides organizing, we also had to help out with all the events that all the other maincomm members organized. There was a period of time where we had CSC events (that lasted a few fays each) every week for 5 weeks straight... Our timetables are actually all collated by one of the maincomm members la, so no escaping from duties also because they know when is our breaks/lessons HAHA. For that period of time, almost all of my breaks were taken up to help out for CCA events and even if I had no CCA, I had group project meetings. It was one of the most stressful month I ever had in Year 1, and I was soooooooo tired and so frustrated. To add on, we also had meetings every few weeks or so on a school day at 7pm which would sometimes end at like 9pm and it could get really, really tiring. I was always the first one (if not the first few) to leave meetings also cause I really just want to get home...
As much as I love being a maincommittee member and feeling like I'm a part of something big (helping out at events, sending emails to 1100 people and having your email in their inboxes etc), I really didn't enjoy all the workload we had. I knew right from the start that being in the maincommittee would be REALLY hard, but that didn't stop me from joining anyway so I have no one else to blame but myself.
However, it came to the point where I really didn't enjoy CCA at all (even though the people were really nice) and was constantly complaining here and there. Like I said, I genuinely do enjoy doing community service work because it's really fulfiling la. But I didn't want being all busy/stressed about the work I had to do in the main committee to affect my passion/willingness to do community service work?
I knew that whatever events we organized really helped to give back to society, but I didn't like that I had to sometimes "force" myself to (go for my duties to) do community work. I really don't want to hate doing community work. I know it's so ironic, like being in the CSC maincomm should make you love doing community work more, not the other way round. I know I'm being REALLY selfish, but I feel like if I didn't want to commit another year to being in the maincommittee, I might as well give my spot up for someone who deserves it more than I do, and someone who would do a much better job than I did.
Okay that is my long rant of why I didn't want to continue to be in the maincommittee. Long story short, I just didn't feel "right" for the job hahaha. Really grateful to the people that I had "consulted" with about whether or not I should quit CSC maincomm HAHA okay bye making pizza dough with Marilyn tomorrow!!!!!!!
But this is a sechuled post as usual so I would have probably made and eaten the pizza dough before you read this post HAHA OK BYE
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