even in the dust, we shine

now i'm slightly embarrassed by all the drawings i posted here on my blog because they're not even exceptionally good and idk why i was so proud of them lol is there anything i can be good at

and now i'm probably just really annoying because i don't "appreciate" the things I can do but sometimes I do think that I am capable of things and it's not like i can't see my own "talents" (if you can call it that) but some days (like this) when people make me feel like shit they succeed and i feel like everything i ever did and accomplished doesnt even mean anything now

today just isn't my dayyyyyyyyyyyyyy but it's ok i'm still a blessed girl :) and I know that I'll feel better about myself tomorrow :) :) :)

Edit (5 minutes later): I think I know something I might be good at and that is making really nice friends who make me feel much better about myself wow love you all many many




And I'm not trying to purposely fish for compliments e.g. say "i think i suck" so that people will tell me "no you don't you are so good and talented"...... I mean of course I want to feel good about myself and I don't like it when people try to bring me down... I also won't lie and say that I don't like it when my friends assure me that I'm good enough, but I'm not doing all this on purpose to get them to say it?????? As cliche as it sounds, my blog (after all) is an avenue for me to just let loose and rant as much as I can?? I know that I don't need to always put a disclaimer in posts like these and if people want to hate on me they wouldn't even believe my "disclaimer" but idk I just feel the need to?????

Because sometimes when other people I don't know personally very well do this I feel quite offended like "omg you are so talented why CAN YOU NOT SEE IT" and then I realize I (kind of) do the same thing too. I'm trying to be more understanding because NOW I know that everyone (no matter how perfect they seem to us) goes through days where they just feel like they're not "good enough"... And I have to understand and not always assume that they're trying to get attention, because I want people to do the same to me too esp on days where I feel like shit even though I myself know that I'm not???

I will be a better person and it's okay if I make mistakes/sin along the way because I will learn from my mistakes!!!!!!!