I guess I am mostly at peace about the whole not-being-chosen-as-a-GL thing but from time to time a reminder comes and it stings yknow
when the in-charge (??) texted me, it really hurt lol and I couldn't even bear to look at the message for a second time. I wanted to ask for feedback (lol) but the whole irrational emotional side of me refused and deleted the text hahahaha. and because of this I'll never know why I wasn't selected
was it because I wasn't pretty enough??? (probably)
not cool enough??? (definitely lolol)
or did the whole nervousness and anxiety before the interviews affect my interview "performance"??
maybe I just wasn't memorable enough????????
and I have more or less come to terms with it but just sometimes it really sucks la
the other day I was talking to a senior about it and he asked what role I got for the orientation camp, and I told him to guess. the first thing he guessed was "GL" and when he realized I wasn't he was quite shocked and asked "how come?"
later on he said "don't worry if I was the one deciding you'd definitely be chosen" and it made me really happy lol like maybe I'm not that bad?????? and I guess for now all I can do is also take comfort in the fact that he wasn't the only one who was quite taken aback when I told them I wasn't chosen to be a GL (aiya i know it sounds like I'm bragging but I m sad and need the reaffirmation pls)
but don't get me wrong la I m vvvv thankful that I got into another department (logistics!!!) ahahaha because it'll still be fun!!!!!! the "pre-camp" for all those involved in the orientation camp starts on Sunday and I just hope I won't be too sad la lolol
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