neurodivergent

(well I've stopped doing the lock thing after a year (or even more) because I finally realized that I can NOT let this affect me but there are still the stubborn ones and I hope they don't get worse just because 1 has stopped because that. would. really. suck. it's always a constant battle between "I know I can let this not control me" and "but it's so much easier to just let it control you it's so much easier to just give in why are you changing what you've been so used to for almost 7 years???? quick press that button another time and another time and ANOTHER TIME look at how much relief that gives look at how RIGHT that feels why do you want to change that???"...... and I guess it's quite obvious which side is winning lol ok bye)