"Plans to give you hope and a future"

Was talking to Weiling the other day and came upon the realization that I'm really really really really blessed. 

• I have a good relationship with my family and my friends (who care about and are so supportive of me!!!) 

• I'm not facing any financial issues (in fact I'm working so I have an income for now) 

• I get good grades (WITH HARD WORK) 

• I don't love school assignments but I do love my school and my course a lot  

• I am healthy and (I think) I'm in a relatively good shape 

• In terms of more materialistic / tangible items, I'm quite well off also la 

And I'm just very very very thankful for God and all He's done for me la. 

I'm also thankful for all the opportunities I have gotten ever since I entered Poly... I've been selected as a main committee member for my CCA, assistant class rep, gotten on the Director's List and awarded a scholarship for both academic years (that pays for my school fees). 

In Secondary School, I didn't get very good grades and I was always the last few in my class and I just wasn't seen as a "smart" girl la. So I guess it came as a shock to almost everyone (including me) when I was the 4th in level for O's (????????????) and I guess from then on, it made me realize that I can actually do this. 

And in Poly, things are SO different and people actually treat me seriously (as opposed to looking down on me) and sometimes even come to me with school-related questions??? 

I mean it's overwhelming but it makes me feel good, you know. And I know my self esteem ever since I entered poly isn't positively correlated with my results (hahahaha) but my self efficacy is??? I.e. I'm aware of my capabilities la haha. I mean I used to always be satisfied with a pass or a B in secondary school just because I thought that was all I could do.

Just today afternoon before work, my form teacher called me. He then told me about how he was planning to nominate me to represent TP (?!!?!?!) in an event AND speak about MY experience with academic stuff and my CCA (???!!?!?!?!?) AND possibly even meet high profile people (??!???!!????!??!??!??!!!!???!?). 

It's not confirmed yet because I haven't been selected la, but the fact that he wants to nominate me is already a HUGE accomplishment to me. The whole time he was telling me about this, I just couldn't believe it??? The whole thing itself sounds so important and prestigious, and just the thought of ME having to talk there (let alone just physically being there) leaves me in utter shock la. And the whole time I was listening, I kept thinking "Wow God wow wow wow wow wow". I was nervous about accepting his nomination and also worried because I'd have to miss 2 days of school lessons if I was selected... But I know that God would want me to grab hold of this opportunity :-) Now I really pray to get selected because 1) The experience!!!!!!!! 2) I think it'll help me with Uni admission also hahahahaha. 

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I know this whole post seems like me talking about my achievements and me me me me BUT REALLY everything is God's glory on me :-) I've experienced so many amazing things since getting close to God and I know that things are just going to get better. 

AND I JUST WANT TO SPREAD HIS WORK ON ME TO AS MANY PEOPLE AS I CAN because He's truly wonderful la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

OK I have to go back to work and wash trays so bYE abrupt ending ftw (who uses ftw anymore hahaha)