"Don't despair, just declare"

Yet another truly amazing Arrow service (◡‿◡✿)

If you declare with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. Romans 10:9 

So anyway today I went up to one of the leaders ministering (1. To attend to the wants and needs of others 2. To perform the functions of a cleric). I wasn't expecting much honestly, I just thought the leaders would just say the same general things to us, like "God will always be there for you" / "God listens". There were so many people waiting for their turn to be ministered, so my initial thought was "where got time to personalize?"

I was quite (really) upset a few days before service and felt like shit so I really wanted to be ministered to. When it was my turn, I went up to the leader. She held my hands and told me to relax because she could feel that I was really tense. I don't remember the vast majority of what she said.. .But I remember she told me to not let my past affect me and that God will never let me go back there again. I was talking to Weiling after service and she told me what the leader ministering her told her, and it was very different from what I heard from my leader.

And then it just hit me. Even if there were long lines of people waiting to be ministered/waiting to hear God's word for them, God still made time for every single one of us. He didn't tell the leaders to just say very general things that we all have heard before. He made the time to tell the leaders to tell us what each and every one of us needs to hear.

Even when you think God won't have the time to listen to every one of us, He proves you wrong and proves to you that He does. And it's just amazing la... Sometimes I feel very insignificant because there are probably billions of God's children out there wanting God to help them with bigger problems... So sometimes I feel like what I pray for aren't as "important" as others. But at the end of the day (actually throughout the day also lol), God listens to all of His children and He really just wants to help each and everyone of us la. Even if it's about small things like getting a seat on the bus or getting rid of the pimples on your (my) face, He listens and He's there for us. God's really cool and He loves us a lot la :-)

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Today I also saw a mother and her daughter eating porridge and sharing 2 small bowls of plain stir-fried vegetables, and I felt like it juxtaposed (not in a discriminating way) my mum and I who were at the table besides them. We had bags after bags of groceries, plus my mum just bought so much food for my brother (and the 2 of us). I even complained about how heavy carrying everything back home was.......... But then I reached home and found myself struggling to decide what to eat for dinner because we had so much food.

And then I realized how lucky and blessed I am to even have THAT much food and groceries la. Like, thankful that I don't have to think twice about whether or not to get $5 cheese or $3.20 Sunshine bread. Thankful that we can afford the luxury of spending $2.30 on 1 ear of corn (v.s. $1.60 for 2 ears of corn) and thankful that my mum does not hesitate to buy the pork floss egg bread or otah that I "suddenly feel like eating" because we can afford buying more. And I guess sometime it's really the smallest of things that we overlook and don't appreciate as much, but sometimes it's also the smallest of things that matter the most. And we should learn to be more thankful ᕦ(◡‿◡ˇ)ᕤ 

P.S. Written 13 Sep (after Arrow), but only being published on 18 Sep