treacherous

Put your lips close to mine 

As long as they don't touch 

Out of focus, eye to eye 

Till the gravity's too much 

I can't decide if it's a choice 

Getting swept away 

I hear the sound of my own voice 

Asking you to stay 

Your name has echoed through my mind 

And I just think you should know 

That nothing safe is worth the drive 

And I would follow you home 

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Was scrolling through all social media and automatically comparing my lives to the lives of all these people I don't even know??? And then obviously just feeling like my life is so uninteresting and boring and not remarkable enough... But then Kim sent a link of this article to our group chat and it was a good reminder to myself la. 

"Stop comparing your behind-the-scenes with everyone else's highlight reel"!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Which reminds me, a few hours later Hana also sent a link to an article on Social Perfectionism to our PSIG comm chat and I guess everything's just too timely to be labelled a "coincidence".. So thank You for these small reminders :-) 

Also got to talk to Mav later on in the day because he managed to get wifi in his hotel overseas and we were just sending each other pictures (thank God for technology) 

Sent a not-so-flattering picture of myself in bed with a ridiculous gummy smile (legit looks like I have no teeth) but :-)))))))))) 

Er later on he called me a "creepy child stalker" wtf!!!!!! But it's ok because he said other 很好听的话 that made up for that very false accusation ಠ_ಠ. Anyway I guess what I'm trying to say is... I'm thankful??? Was just feeling quite meh (not sad) about everything in general but all these little things just add up and made me feel contented with my own life y'know. 

Also don't know if recording all these down here on this public space is a good idea because I'm afraid of things ending horribly and hating myself for broadcasting it all over the place and being so happy about it in the first place....But I guess no matter what happens, I really can't deny that the past few weeks have been the happiest I've been in awhile and I guess I just really want to record everything (good or bad) down somewhere la. Life's been treating me vvvvv good lately and I've been feeling much stronger (mentally) and coping with compulsions much better and I just hope this lasts for as long as it possibly can