"We don't see things as they are, we see things as we are"

Was studying the chapter "The Social Self" for Soial Psych today and I found that a lot of the things were really interesting because a lot can be applied to our own lifeahaha. Anyway while reading the textbook, I happened to chance across this quote, "We don't see things as they are, we see things as we are" and it struck me quite hard?? I've never liked a quote as much as I liked this, and It's because I can really, really relate to the quote, especially at this point of time la.

(Like I said in my prev post) I really need to be more confident in myself and my abilities since I have achieved quite a lot over the last year... And usually it'd be enough to prove to myself that I'm good enough, yet sometimes I still feel like I'm inadequate???????????

It's like even though I am clearly aware of all the things I've achieved academically, I still feel as if everything I've done isn't enough to prove to me that I'm "enough". The confidence I have in myself is rather (ok very) low and it really just prevents me from actually believing in myself???? And idek how this started lol maybe cause I suprisingly exceeded like everyone's expectations during O Levels and I'm so determined to get that feeling back and maybe cause studying is probably one of the few things I can do and maybe becausw I have friends who think so highly of me and it's like if I go anywhere below their expectation I'd feel really ashamed of myself???

And right now I am absolutely terrified and I am so angry at myself for not starting to study earlier becaue I have like 4 tests coming in like 1-2 weeks along with a not even 1/2 done (or anywhere near) research I have to do on a subject I am utterly clueless on AND then write a whole report on it wtf and it's due next Friday???????????? I feel so UNPREPARED AND CLUELESS AND LOST AND TERRIFIED IS AN UNDERSTATEMENT BECAUSE WHATEVER I'M FEELING NOW IS JUST ¥#£$€*"*#*#£@¥#*$!"*×(#??????????????????????

And I feel like I let down the people who truly care about me because it's like no matter what they tell me I'm still so helpless but it isnt cause their support isnt enough because it's already like more than enough and idw people to give up on me but it really is just me because even I'm getting sick and tired of this state I'm constantly in

like omg this stupid jerlyn just blogged about getting into director's list 2 days ago and is now talking about how she is useless HA HA haaazHhAaa

IT IS 4.30AM NOW lol i beter go sleep hopefully tomorrow will be a better day lol ugh i really dkdkdkdkdkdkdkdk how to do my research and report on time NIHISJICCIJONNOSNODSSONSDNOSDMKSCOMSC SERIOUSLY DAMN SCARED LA and i want to start now because I didnt do much today but i need my sleep??????