The past few days my appetite has been massive and so the other day you randomly asked if I was gaining weight with my increased appetite. My first reaction was utter sadness and disappointment because I thought that I had gained some obvious weight, and you were trying to tell me to stop eating :-(
But before I could say anything (except spam multiple crying face emojis), you said "cause if you're losing weight then you might have a thyroid problem according to WebMD". It's such a small thing to take note of but I realized how fully accepting you've been of me. Because of past experiences, it was so easy for me to automatically assume that you were implying that I should cut down on my eating... But you were really just concerned about my health and wellbeing over physical appearances and anything else. Even after I continued to tell you my weight fluctuates a lot and that I might have gained a little this week, you replied "oh that's good, that's good that you're gaining weight hehe".
I like to think that I have become more accepting of my body but there are some days where I still need that little extra bit of assurance, and I'm glad you willingly give it to me.
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In other life updates: I'm trying to juggle work + FO Camp & Psychology Student Conference preparation + spending ample time with my loved ones and I don't know how to do it well and I just want to get this week/month over and done with cri
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